Reading, Writing, and Studying

Just by look up the title I disbelieve those such things are interesting for some, but for me those things are one of the activities that I miss the most. Last year I studied for SBMPTN, through my depression, I tried so hard to learn: sometimes it's easy, sometimes it's not, because when it hit you, I became numb and dying in bed. So, I didn't regret when I didn't get accepted in the University, also because my mom isn't financially stable.

But gosh I kinda miss those activities, I do still get to study through my courses to be a hotelier but for me, studying math, english, history,or even science are such a personal satisfaction. I can see the world widely open with the whole knowledge that I've learnt. It craves me to wander of reality in the world, it gives me sense of power and purpose not only for well being and happiness, but greater good for humanity as a whole. 

Thus, I decide to write my thoughts and feelings in here, I read about Kartini's biography yesterday, it's not like I haven't read that before. But there's prompting my eagerness to write again. Because when you write you become a part of history, when you write you won't be forgotten. Some people fears oblivion, and it's inevitable, but I guess by writing those things would be less ensue. Do I fear those things? I probably don't, but I don't wanna see my thoughts and ideas are fall into oblivion, I wanna my words can spark encouragement to those people who passionate to pursue to their dreams, those who hustle in day and night. 

My friends know I write a lot, especially in IG story but there is a time I sense to not only just a random stuff, but also to write comprehensive article with coherent words, grammars, and sentences. To fix my literacy but also others. So, don't be mistaken if I'm going to write more in the future.

And I'll be in Thailand for about a week? Can't you believe that? I've waited too long but now the time is close, I feel like it's too soon. I can't wait to work to earn some money, I wanna use my money to buy books. It's been a long time since I don't read a book, I feel so dumb, clueless, and stupid because of that. Well, I hope I could buy some books soon.

You know, I think that's enough, see you when I see you!